Another season of change comes as time in my current career draws to a close. The decision to step outside of my comfort zone has never been easy; it comes at a time when many things worry me. But without stepping out of where I'm comfortable with, I realise that I'll never grow. I'll stagnate. That's not what I want to be.
Alongside with a big career change comes many other things that challenges who I am fundamentally; my perception on life, my values as well as my priorities. It's scary to know that one moment things may always seem to be smooth-sailing, and suddenly you run into icebergs you never knew existed. Am I ready for it? I don't know. Am I adaptable enough to ride the waves? I hope so.
There are so many things I think I want to do in life. I want to pursue my passions, I want to have a happy family, I want to do the things that some years ago would have seem like only a dream. I know there are many things going on around me that I need to take control of, but I hope and pray that God will be be faithful as I make my decisions, as He always have in my life.
Today I looked into the eyes of a person well beyond her years, really old in age, lying on the hospital bed. It reminded me once again of the fragility of life, and wave after wave of emotions swept across me as it struck me that one day I will be in the very same situation. Will I have lived life as I wanted it to be? How long will we even live? Will we have made in difference with the time that we have? Who will bother standing beside me as the breaths we take become shallower, and slower? Who will remember the fond memories of the love you have extended when you were a giver? Who will remember me?
Change - is a scary thing. It moulds you, it forces you to adapt and it pushes you in directions you never thought of going. Change is something that brings us out of comfort zones, to pull us up towards new, greater things we never thought possible. Change - embrace it, because only when you think you are crazy enough to change your world, will you really do.
