Great Things Never Come From Comfort Zones

Another season of change comes as time in my current career draws to a close. The decision to step outside of my comfort zone has never been easy; it comes at a time when many things worry me. But without stepping out of where I'm comfortable with, I realise that I'll never grow. I'll stagnate. That's not what I want to be.

Alongside with a big career change comes many other things that challenges who I am fundamentally; my perception on life, my values as well as my priorities. It's scary to know that one moment things may always seem to be smooth-sailing, and suddenly you run into icebergs you never knew existed. Am I ready for it? I don't know. Am I adaptable enough to ride the waves? I hope so.

There are so many things I think I want to do in life. I want to pursue my passions, I want to have a happy family, I want to do the things that some years ago would have seem like only a dream. I know there are many things going on around me that I need to take control of, but I hope and pray that God will be be faithful as I make my decisions, as He always have in my life.

Today I looked into the eyes of a person well beyond her years, really old in age, lying on the hospital bed. It reminded me once again of the fragility of life, and wave after wave of emotions swept across me as it struck me that one day I will be in the very same situation. Will I have lived life as I wanted it to be? How long will we even live? Will we have made in difference with the time that we have? Who will bother standing beside me as the breaths we take become shallower, and slower? Who will remember the fond memories of the love you have extended when you were a giver? Who will remember me?

Change - is a scary thing. It moulds you, it forces you to adapt and it pushes you in directions you never thought of going. Change is something that brings us out of comfort zones, to pull us up towards new, greater things we never thought possible. Change - embrace it, because only when you think you are crazy enough to change your world, will you really do.

Being Thankful

It's already more than midway through the first month of 2019. Gosh, time flies. We never know what tomorrow brings because sometimes we are so preoccupied with work, relationships, family, friends. What's more with Chinese New Year around the corner.. I can already feel the new year weight management resolution flying out of the window.

Lately, I'm really thankful for a few things. I'm thankful firstly for the love and support from my girlfriend, family and friends in 2018; without which I could have not made it through many tough moments, especially those tough days at work. I know there's much work to be done in my personal life, especially now that the weight of many things have started bearing down upon me in adulthood. I want to be a good boyfriend, son and also friend all at the same time. Many times it is difficult to juggle so many things, and never more so than now. I wonder what the rest of 2019 will be like, but I hope that it can be a year of reflection, growth and healing.

I'm also grateful for having supportive managers at work. Having been through 3 employers now I have seen and experienced the different working styles that each manager has; how we need to adapt, respond and also manage their expectations accordingly in different ways. It is also through my latest line managers that I had the opportunity to move upwards quickly in the organisation that I'm currently in. Now that it has happened, I suddenly feel a sense of.. "Ok, what's next?".. creeping up in my mind. Not sure if that should be the case, but it certainly warrants a period of self-reflection.

As I ponder over what will presumably be a very eventful year ahead, I silently treasure this quiet moment to pen my thoughts into this post. I fear the future, that is only the human part of me, but at the same time I cling on to a quiet hope that everything will be okay. It will be okay.